Hello im Sam, reading some of the posts makes me somewhat sad to know that right at this moment someone else is feeling exactly the way I do. Many people have different reasons as to why they suffer with anxiety related handicaps but thats another story. A little bit about me... I was quiet a happy child very outgoing and had a buzz from socialising with all people from all walks of life. As I got to 17 when i left school a number of negative things started happening to me, My mother dis-owned me for smoking pot and returned back to africa (I am mixed race British), and was finding it increasingly difficult to reestablish myself in college, and other bad things that i cant discuss. With all these oppressive actions beating down at me something just popped and found myself fearing going to college, as far as getting on the bus and so on.
Here I am now in my early 20's experiencing alot of ups and downs including drugs and alchol to self medicate and suffering with a social anxiety disorder and agoraphobia dreading going back to college.
Interestingly, one of the reasons why I fear strangers and find it hard to trust people is because before all this anxiety nonsense, I really valued people and loved people so its like I fear the thing that I love the most and this has been my downward spiral since I was 17/18.
Im sorry if I have gone on too much, I suppose its from being alone, having no outlet.
Anyhow, I am really going to try and come to these meets. I hope that these meetings will prepare me for college because if I stay in all the time fearing the outdoors up until september, ill never be able to survive college!
Thanks for listening, and looking forward to meeting some of you.
Many thanks and good health!
Topic: enrolled at college and need to handle this fear (Read 436 times)