Despite fulfilling a dream and becoming a teacher I still feel an overwhelming lack of self worth in my life.
I love the job and even enjoy the rigid format of work which doesn't allow too much time to dwell on my thoughts. But I dread the staffroom, despite appearing confident I don't feel it's me who talks. I dream of being well adjusted and feeling able to remain quiet, I see what my personality does to peope and I hate it.
Recently I've noticed my anxiety getting worse, I keep on checking doors etc and jump whenever there's a loud noise or even when I hear my front door.
I just want to be happy, to be normal.
